Prayer for Men's Deliverance from Fear of Vulnerability

Dear God

Deliver me from my fear of vulnerability

And the pride that refuses to allow me to admit I'm afraid to be that seen

To have every fear from every age carried in the hands of another person

To build hopes and dreams and wrap them up in someone else

Who may decide at any time, to take a knife to cut themselves free

And leave those dreams no more than mangled scraps of fabric

Dear God, deliver me from my fear that everything I will build and work towards will be taken from me

By some sick joke or twist of fate in which the universe baits me with the prospect of happiness, only to have everything taken anyway

Dear God, allow me to cultivate the desire to be more vulnerable with the women who love me - to allow the grail of feminine love and intuitive wisdom flow through me so that I may integrate both masculine and feminine sides of myself to become whole.

Dear God, allow me to renounce my tendency towards lying for convenience and doing the easy thing instead of the right thing. 

God, fill my heart with integrity and strength as I learn to become a better man and purge myself of any predatorial, negative, machiavellian, narcissistic, judgemental and other similar imprints that negatively impede my relationship with myself and others, and keep me locked in cycles of withdrawal, hostility, shame, addiction, idealization, compartmentalization and regret. 

I make a conscious decision to move towards congruence of mind, body and spirit, in alignment with the light of truth.

Dear God, I acknowledge that I have a deep resistance to feeling vulnerable but I want to try to be vulnerable when needed by those who love me.

I acknowledge that I do not know how to balance the fear of vulnerability with the fear of emasculation and that these two aspects of me will continue to dance with eachother until they are brought into coherence.

I ask that you deliver me from my fear of failure and my need to do it perfectly on the first attempt.

I ask that you imbue me with the self-esteem to not give up and self-sabotage when things go wrong or I don't get it right.

I ask that you flood my heart with self-forgiveness for the mistakes I have and will continue to make, and that I will continue to learn and grow from them.

I ask those who love me to have patience with me and see that I am trying.

I ask to feel the light of God and the Holy Blessed Mother fill me, as I remind myself that my inherent self-worth is my divine inheritance and is untouchable completely by others.

I acknowledge that this internal journey I will mostly make alone, but I act as protector and guardian of my own inner child, so that he may feel safe and supported at this time.

Amen